Well, now I have a little relief from my back and am seeing my now 4 year old son, getting more mature and growing up so darn fast that I can't help but fast forward to our family life in another 30 years. Haydn will call and say in fairness he is spending Christmas, Thanksgiving, President's Day--whatever the holiday- with his significant other and their family. And there we'll sit. The two of us, just him and me. Now, having more than one child isn't a guarantee that our house will always be filled. We could have a gaggle of children and still be alone. That's not my beef. I want Haydn to have a sibling, to experience the feeling of being a big brother and I want know what a family of 4 feels like as a Mom as well. Everyone says the love grows. It has too, I'm the baby--the third child. I HAVE to believe the love grows.
So, this is our little secret for now, just you, me, and the bazillion people on the web...I wonder what God's plan is...it would be great if a miracle for in our future!
2 comments:
Oh baby, this is a whopper. I know one other friend in your situation and I ache over your impass. Perhaps this could be a tactic for you. If you decide to have another child, you can be guaranteed that love will blossom, you know will never regret that new life in your life. But if you decide to only have one child, you may have a part of you that wonders "what if?" forever.
Is it fear holding him back? Is it concern over what life will be like with two? Of course the infant period is a bit rocky, but it just keeps getting better.
But none of us simple mortals can fully comprehend our divine plan and your spectacular family of three may be your path.
it's so funny- j & i are both ready for another baby, but my body isn't cooperating right now. wouldn't it be funny if your husband got the baby mine wants? so to speak? if it makes you feel any better (don't you ahte when people say that?!) every only child i know (including moi) is incredibly close with their parents.
ps/ tagged ya! get the deets at my blog. :)
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